You think and say things as if it’s all going downhill and you’re going to lose whatever it is that you want so bad. You’r not even close to falling and you’re not seeing reality, I’m still here, but I don’t think you look at it that way.
I’ll probably be gone and won’t reach you in awhile but I know you’re upset with me and you’re probably going to cry yourself to sleep because of how much you miss me. I know I may sound harsh or as if I don’t care but I do. If your reading this, I didn’t mean for that to be mean but you should know me by now. Of course I’m going to miss you and of course I appreciate your efforts. There’s a lot of things I can say with my negative dislikes about you and point out your flaws but I won’t. You’ll be fine without me. Don’t be so sad. Have fun with your friends and take up as much time with them because when I get back I’ll try my very best to hang out with you every chance I get. I proved to you a lot this week. You thought the last time hanging out with you would’ve been last week but it wasn’t right!? I found ways to see you everyday before I left. When I get back hopefully things will be better and all. Just know all those negative things you’ll be thinking about while I’m gone is total shit. Get it out of your head. Think positive and be strong for me. You don’t think I’m upset!? With whatever might happen while I’m gone. There’s so many things that can surprise me and things I can find out when I get back. But! I trust and care for you enough to know your better then that. I hope you stay how you are and don’t let my absence change you. I’m about to take off now and I charged my phone all the way and by writing this long ass post I lost like 5% carefully thinking through what I should be telling you. Just know while I’m in the air I’ll be listening to music thinking of you, sleeping dreaming of you, and staring into the skies wishing I was with you. I’m getting myself teary eyed while writing this so I’ll stop before I cry in front of my family. Talk to you later, be good and stay safe.
This made me forget all of my problems for like 12 seconds.